Goodbye good goody girl, im changing and how
I need a place to spend the day,
Where no one says to go or stay.
Where can take a pen and draw
The Girl I mean to be.
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Sep 27, 2004
You stand here looking at me
Dance all night.
Face opportunity.
You came here looking for me.
Gotta little something for ya.
Hustle for me.
I want to be a singer.
I want to be pretty.
I want to be brilliant.
I want to be good.
Why cant they back up off me, why cant they let me live.
Why would you wanna bring me down when im only having fun?
Good bye good-goody girl, im changing and how.
When i get there, you better be ready to rocksteady.
Everybody shake it! Time to be free amongst yourselves, Sexual revolution. Right here, right now.
Let go, let go, jump in.oh well, what you waiting for. Its alright, cause theres beauty in the breakdown.
Someone searching, searching for someone.
Chase all the ghosts from my head.
Im lost. please find me.
He's out there. He's out there for me..so why worry now?
Its ok, its all gonna be fine
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Sep 26, 2004
Austin totally rocks!!! I love it I love I love it!!!! Sooo good. I want to live there. The University of Texas would make me very very happy. I saw my sisters this weekend!!! It was very comforting. I love them. This time the whole family went out on the town. We walked the streets of Austin for hours listening to music, eating, and shopping at the festival on 6th. I could totally live there and love it!!!
Im very sad that Southwestern in Georgetown didnt impress me at all. The interview and stuff went well, but they dont have what i want. I could double in theater and communications there, but the communication dept. didnt affect me greatly. Nice dorms and buildings, but its not right for me. I didnt get a great vibe from the professors. I thought about it for a long time and i definitely couldnt picture myself there. Its too small. Oh well. Im glad i visited it. yep.
Ahhh, on Saturday night we went to the Hula Hut for dinner and Mozarts for dessert. It was a perfect night with the whole Fam Damnily. So good. It was a superb weekend!! One that i havent had in a long time. yay, But now im back to normality. stink. Im gonna make the best of it.
Family song of the weekend,
"Blue jean baby, L.A. lady, seamstress for the band
Pretty eyed, pirate smile, you'll marry a music man
Ballerina, you must have seen her dancing in the sand
And now she's in me, always with me, tiny dancer in my hand
Jesus freaks out in the street
Handing tickets out for God
Turning back she just laughs
The boulevard is not that bad
Hold me closer tiny dancer
Count the headlights on the highway
Lay me down in sheets of linen
you had a busy day today"
YAY for family!
Have a great day/night!
God bless!!
~Melissa~
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Sep 24, 2004
YAY!! its Austin/Georgetown weekend!!! Im excited. I will be looking at UT and St. Eds in Austin, and Southwestern, in Georgetown...it shall be fun. Im nervous. My first interview is tomorrow morning at 9!!! eeek....it will be swell! I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!!!!
God Bless!!!!
~Melissa~
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Sep 23, 2004
Are we there yet?...now?...how about now?
College essays are scary......yeah.
I went driving today in alice's jeep.....hahaha, she stalled out twice!!! hahaha, stupid!!....but it was supa fun. Alice makes all the sadness go away when im with her...she's cool. good friend.
Today i thought about lots of people. I prayed for all the college kids today. I miss them. I envy them too. I would love to be in college right now.....bc right now high school sux.....i dont belong here anymore....I know that ill miss it once im gone, but right now im just filling a desk. College has meaning...or so i say that it does right now.....i have my Southwestern interview/audition on Saturday....how i would love to go to Southwestern....true, people say its easy to get in to, but i really wanna go.....there, i can double major in Communication and Theater.....that would make my parents very happy and I as well. Im excited about it.....in fact i cant wait! A different life is just around the corner! But i have to be patient....i have to wait my turn. High school at the moment has proved itself to be a jail cell...we're told when to eat, when to walk, when to study, when to stress, and when do things we dont wanna do!! Im ready for the exit. NOW.....i know this is a time to cherish, but when youre ready to move on, youre ready.....nothing is here for me at school. People really dont care if im there or not....im not trying to whine or be negative, im just being literal. I cant breathe here!!!! Maybe i will feel differently later....probably. hehe, im so weird....hahahaha, this entry sounds so dramatic...its not intended to. teehee...im really just stating the obvious. Alrighty....i must get back to work...colleges are waiting to see good results!
"Am i standing still. Beneath the darkened sky.
Or Am i standing still With the scenery flying by
Am i standing still Out of the corner of my eye
Was that you, passing me by" -Jewel-
God bless!
~Melissa~
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Sep 21, 2004
"And its fine, its fine, its fine"
yes, another entry.....its kind of a routine now to get online and get some college work done and then type an entry.
Oh gosh...today was a good day. You know why?? bc, im living and breathing and blessed with a good life! yeah.
And! i got 100s on my two computer tests!! yipee!! I normally hate AP Bus. Comp. Everyone in there is a computer genius!!!! Sitting next to Mr. Eddie Swidriski (our valedictorian) is quite intimidating. eek, but hey, what did he get on his computer tests? yeah, thats right, he got an average of 98%. Oh eddie, dont you know that a .exe file is a file extension that denotes that a file can be executed? Can i get a what what! haha, how i love to foolishly brag. Ed is our valedictorian and he is 50 people ahead of me. Ive got nothing next to him. haha GPA, what?
Im really excited!!!! Life is good!!! I thought it was bad, but its good! I dont have to worry about silly things!!! I dont have to worry about looking pretty (with the exception for college auditions). I dont have to worry!!! Gosh, im over and done with it.....haha, even though ill worry about it tomorrow.
"oh, your gaze is dangerous
And you fill your space so sweet
If i let you get too close
You'll set your spell on me
So darlin' I just wanna say
Just in case i dont come through
I was into every play
I just wanted you."
~Fiona Apple~
she says it right
YAY for good days!!!!
God bless the world!!!
~Melissa Brooke~
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Sep 20, 2004
just a day, just an ordinary day.
There are 95 days until Christmas.....arghh.
Christmas is the only time where i can feel at peace with myself....it's the best day ever.
I need something good, something really good. Tell me something good!!!!!
Oh! i saw Bennett in the hall today. That was good. He's adorable!!!! He's mine. I claim him.
Oh! and i get to get out of class everytime i feel i have low blood sugar!! thats so awesome....im taking advantage of that!!!! yess.
And that was my beautiful day...ta da!
I wish i could talk to you....but i cant (get it?) yeah?
"Be thou my vision, oh Lord of my heart."
I need that vision, and only that vision....Ive strayed from what is the most important thing....ahhh im selfish!!
Im so thankful for everything!!!
OHH! And laurie, i looove you sooo much!! Im am praying non-stop for you!!! i miss you...a lot.
God bless!!!
~Melissa~
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Sep 19, 2004
IM GETTING NOWHERE!!!!!!!!!
I stress and stress, but is it ever gonna get me anywhere?.......NOPE!!!!!!!!!!
Ive had a crappy week.
But i have hope!!! I need to breathe!!!
I love you Meg....youve been a pal.
"No matter what we do, No matter what they say
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes"
-C. Aguilera-
God bless!!!
~Melissa~
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Sep 15, 2004
Its a Beautiful day in the neighborhood
Wont you be mine, wont you be mine.
ahhhh...pretty skies today...but its waay too hot...as always...
YAY!!! I SAW LAURIE YESTERDAY!!!!!!!! IT WAS SUPER GREAT TO SEE HER!!! I LOOOVE YOU BEBE!!! OHHH MAN, IVE NEVER HAD HAPPY TEARS QUITE LIKE THAT. SHE MAKES ME SOO HAPPY!!! AHHH!
IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL MOMENT.
And jess! hahaha, i love our beautiful talks on the phone/pee-ing time.... hhahahahahaha....they add a spark to my day!!
ahh, and i saw WICKED!!! omg soooooo goood. Kamen bought a bootleg copy of Kristen's last night...ohh man....it was awesome!!!!!! I want to be in it!!!!!!! Its definitely a favorite of mine! ahhhhhhhhhh sooooo soooo good! Bravo!
"Unlimited, my future is unlimited. And just had a vision almost like a prophecy...i know. Its sounds truly crazy, and true the visions hazy, but i swear some day theyll be a celebration throughout Oz, thats all to do with me!"
YAY! ahhhh...im so happy right now. Im so content. Everything is coming along beautifully. I love life. I just thought about all my blessings. hehe...today was a wonderful day....for no specific reason. I should know that everyday is a wonderful day. oh, and im very happy to know that David is feeling better than he did...i was worried. Even though i hate him. :) Anywho im off to get some Physics done, so can have a lot of bible time with alice....whoopie!!! Until next time....
God bless you wonderful people!
~Melissa~
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Sep 12, 2004
"I feel stupid," she said with her finger placed on top of her nose (Ha! Meg)
Stupidity stu·pid·i·ty
n. pl. stu·pid·i·ties
- The quality or condition of being stupid.
- A stupid act, remark, or idea.
Yep I feel stupid.....ahhh, you know the feeling when you totally embaress yourself? like big time embarassment? yeah....
HI finals....hahaha.... i dont care....speech tournaments are stupid...yesss
Goodness gracious, I suck, i suck, i suck, i suuuuuuck!!!!!
A little song for my benefit,
When you come home...I should have told them I was sick last week
They're gonna think this is the way I sing. Why is the pianist playing so loud?
Should I sing louder? I'll sing louder
Maybe I should stop and start over. I'm gonna stop and start over
Why is the director staring at his crotch? Why is that man staring at my resume?
Don't stare at my resume. I made up half of my resume
Look at me. Stop looking at that, look at me
No, not at my shoes. Don't look at my shoes
I hate these freaking* shoes. Why did I pick these shoes?
Why did I pick this song?
Why did I pick this career?
Why does this pianist hate me?
Why am I working so hard?
These are the people who cast Linda Blair in a musical
Goodness gracious*, I suck, I suck, I suck, I suck
When fin'lly you come home to...
Okay, thank you
Thank you so much
Okaaay, i should work on my homework.....bc if i dont and i get an even lower GPA score, ill feel even more stupid than i already feel!! eeeek
Okay, thank you, thank you so much......i will not be the girl stuck at home in the burbs, with the baby, the dog and the garden of herbs!!!
I love you all. God bless!
~Melissa~
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Sep 9, 2004
There's someone searching
Someone searching
Searching for someone
Everywhere and endlessly
Wishing, waiting
Could there be someone?
Searching for
Someone searching
-Ginny Owens-
She says it all......you know.
~Melissa~
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