Goodbye good goody girl, im changing and how
I need a place to spend the day,
Where no one says to go or stay.
Where can take a pen and draw
The Girl I mean to be.
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Sep 1, 2004
"If i could tell the world just one thing, it would be, we're all ok. And not to worry, cause worry is wasteful and useless in times like these."
I can worry no longer.
I must say that i am so thankful for everything and everyone in my life. I am sooo blessed. I have been given many great things. I have been touched by many great people. Im living in a household that is made up of wonderful family members. Yes they can be completely weird, but theyre still awesome. I love my life. I feel guilty for not always loving what i have. Ive been selfish. Heavenly Father, i ask you for forgiveness. You have granted me a beautiful life, and when i die i will feel complete, knowing that you have loved me.
I decided to feel upset and worried for myself today. ha! that sounds exactly like a Melissa thing to do. Well this Melissa has been selfish. There's def. room for change. Im unhappy, scared, and angry right now...why do these things have to happen?!!! BUT, God has a plan for whats to come -- and i Know his plan is the right one. Im praying everyday.
All the times that Ive been worrying over myself is a waste of time and thought. Looking to the positive is always the best. (Even though a positive result may not happen) Thinking optimistically tunes your mind and heart.
Sooo, im thinking optimistically. Why worry? God will take care of it in some way, if i share it with him.
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Aug 29, 2004
Its time for the big girl stuff. Applying for college, that is. The Texas Common Application came out a couple days ago. eeek. Its starting. The thing Ive thought about since i was little. I never knew exactly where, but i knew that i would be old when the college stuff started. Im almost 18. 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Holy crap!!!! What is this?!! I hate growing up. ahh. Strange times.
Anywho, this weekend was Semi-successful. Klein went to the Foster Tournament where we won 2nd place in Sweepstakes. (wow, college = no more tournaments!!! whooooooooopie!!!) Individually we did fairly well. Alice - 3rd poetry, Kamen -2nd Humorous, Adam+Stephen - 3rd duet, Heather - 3rd prose, Me - 3rd dramatic....we like the number 3. Except for Kamen. Darn that kamen. He ruins everything. jkjk! hehe...yessss it was fun. Schneider and i also got to finals in duet with the most overdone piece, Gwen and Gwen. hahahaha, good good times. It was all fun and games. Literally.
wow, im extremely tired. toooo tired. i always update when im tired. Its like a routine now. silly me. Alice and i stayed up waayy to late talking about everything. I love Alice. I honestly dont know what i would do without her. great kid. indeed.
Okay, im heading off.
Oh wow!!!! the biggest, coolest news!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kristen totally won this acting compition!!!!!!!!!! It was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so cool!!!!!!!!!!!! But im gonna write about it later!!!! Its gonna be a long one.
Okay now im really heading off. Until next time..............
God bless you happy people!
~Melissa~
P.S. The Bowden sisters are undefeatable!!!!!! (in certain areas) ahhhhhhhh I love my sisters!!!!!!!!!!!! "youre gonna make it after all.....da na da da, da!!!!!" Kristen, everthing is falling into place. u were right. Everythang is great!!!!!!!!!
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Aug 23, 2004
YES! Shouldnt we all feel groovy? i think so. how i love simon and garfunkel.
"Feelin' groovy"
Slow down, you move too fast.
You got to make the morning last.
Just kicking down the cobble stones.
Looking for fun and feelin' groovy.
Hello lamppost,
What cha knowing?
I've come to watch your flowers growing.
Ain't cha got no rhymes for me?
Doot-in' doo-doo,
Feelin' groovy.
Got no deeds to do,
No promises to keep.
I'm dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep.
Let the morning time drop all its petals on me.
Life, I love you,
All is groovy.
God bless Simon and Garfunkel!!!!
God bless all!!!!!
My faith is strong. I love life!! so good, so happy, so blessed.
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Aug 22, 2004
yay! the leadership conference was great. I learned so many wonderful things. Unfortunately i am too lazy to write them all down. Sorry. But it was a pretty good weekend all together. It totally pumped me up for the year. This year is gonna rock! Im fricken serious. I cant wait!! If youre happy and ya know it, clap your hands. (i just clapped my hands. u know what that means) hehe. yay. happiness. i got to bond with the younger girls this weekend. we had fun talks. it was nice. The Klein drama dept. is full of such wonderful, talented women. Its kinda scary....yep...ahh, but im im officially exhausted. Sleep is a priority. Until next time....
God bless ye happy people.
~Melissa~
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Aug 19, 2004
im very bereaved and yet so convivial at the same time. People are leaving, or already gone. Its terribly sad and weird. School is different, drama is different, choir is different, my social life will be different, and intrinsically life will be a little different. Not horrible i must say. School still has its perks and its obstacles. Drama still has my all my interests and my passion. Choir is still fricken awesome. And life is very fulfilling right now. It's a brand spanking new year and it is sure to be great. Ive been having pretty good feelings lately. yes'm. I am going to miss those of you that are college/california bound. God has blessed me with putting the most wondeful people in my life. Seriously, the best moments of my life have occurred bc of the people i have known and loved. Wow, am I way cheesy or what? Kamen told me how excited he was about this year, and i must say, i am very excited as well. It is going to be the best bc im gonna make it the best. Signed, sealed, and delivered! im yours. No worries. I cant possibly have worries. What is there to worry about? I think i can deal with not being cast. I think. nope i know...obviously if i dont make a play, im not supposed to be in it, right? hahaha, i think im just setting myself up for the future. Auditions for Noises Off are soon, and yes there are only 4 girl spots. Crazy crazy. Oh well, whatever happens happens. Im not thinking about it.....geez....im the biggest dork ever. Alrighty physics must be attended to.
Until next time...
God bless!!!
~melissa~
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Aug 18, 2004
A purple popsicle and a better day
wayaaaaaaa!...ive got the beginning of school crazies....yesterday (first day) sucked. It completely sucked. Well not all of it. It was just school that sucked. Mrs. Durio's Physics class was not the way to start the day. grrrrr. Terrrrrible woman. She's like a little rat. Urghh i disliked her very much....on the first day! But, i couldnt let that ruin my spirits for the entire day. It was Jessys 18th birthday! Strange bc i turn 18 fairly soon. We had some fun at BJ's. yessss! I returned home to find out that my schedule must be changed bc i couldnt be in Dance IV. Which was good bc i was placed in Rachel and Jamie's class. Obviously that was mistake. hehe...dancing is def. not my forte. So now im in dance I. fun fun. Any class with mich. galdenzi should be pretty interesting. AND! bc of the dance class screw up, i got switched into Mr Robinson's Physics class! yaya! happy day!!! Thanks for praying for me Jess!!! I love u!!! ahhhhhh today was soo much better, even tho i had to put in speech practice hours. Meg and i had fun though. And to top it off i came home to find popsicles in the freezer!!! i love popsicles...purple popsicles....so good. They def. are near the top of my favorites list. I need to bring my purple popsicle to the swings, and then my life will be complete. ahhh theyre delectable. yess! good days they are coming!!! college = crazy. ahhh, i have a feeling itll turn out fine. (i hope) Okay, im off to do some homework and memorization!! yipeeee!
Until next time......
God bless!!!
~Melissa~
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Aug 16, 2004
Pizookies and tortillas make my night
ahhhh, the last late night of freedom. It was awesome.
Michelle and I headed off to BJ's for my favorite of all favorite's......THE PIZOOKIE!!!!!!!!!!! The best cookie ever made.....it was a lovely, fat induced evening. mmmhmmm.
After our delicious 10:00 snack....yeah we're complete health freaks, hehe......we headed in the direction of Mr Alex Barrera, Jeff Klein, and John Tibeaux who i have yet to see all summer.......in retaliation of freshman year tortilla tossing, we gave their cars a good helping of Kroger's best Chica Tortillas......it was beautiful art work.....teehee....of course they knew we did it....who else would get them back with tortillas?? yeah thats right tortillas......The Friday Night Football Club (of which i was girl MVP) had a thang with tortillas. The boys werent too sly with their tortilla raids all over our lawns....hehe...its good clean fun.......eggs, toilet paper, and etc. = mean and too much to clean....tortillas are the best, that was our motto. Plus moms and dads think its funny instead of horrible.....so thats always a plus. yes yes.....it was nice to see all the friends again...i do say, drama has taken over my life.(oh and if u take a peek at the drama call board, i must say it looks fabulous...compliments to Meg and I...we seriously worked our butts off.) anywho, I havent really hung out with these people since sophmore year....sad. oh well, they havent missed me....hehe....but they have seen me in all the plays...what nice people. Alrighty, wowee, its late and i need to get up early tomorrow!!! I love you all...kinda...hehe
Until next time....................
God bless
wahooo, Delago next weekend!!!! Its gonna rock....or at least i hope it does!!!
~melissa~
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Aug 15, 2004
Josh makes everything great!!!!!
OMGSSSSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I just returned from the best concert ever!!!!!!!!!!!! Given by mr. Josh Groban.......HOLY MOLY!!!! It was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! soooooo good. I cant tell you how awesome it was! wahoooooo! Plus the group of people there to see it was totally fun. Mostly choir kids, but hey, who else, right? hehe........Brianna, Brittany, ASHLEY (came all the way from Vegas to see it with us), Janae, Ally, Liz, Nathan, Jenny Hoof, Sandra, Stephen, Andrew, John Gallager!, and Daniel Adams! ohhhh it was fun. gosh, and this kid came from Carnegie?? hey, thats a college choice of mine....it must be fate!! We're destined to be together. hehe, but boy howdy, that guy can sing!!! I love him. Absolutely tops the Melissa charts!!!!! yes yes...okay, that was a little crazy, slipping back into the junior high, star crazy world. But im absolutely serious, the concert kicked major butt!!! Very very well done. A four star performer and the man i would love to marry. Not bc hes just a great singer. He has the cutest little personality on stage, and hes such a dork!! Im a dork!! It HAS to be fate. hehe.....ok....its getting to be too much. Im obsessing over him too much. It was just a very lovely concert......okaay. im off to bed.......................something just started to bug me but ill let it go...josh cant fix this....darn it.........big apologizes to dusty and jess, they were the lucky winners who got to deal with my whining and weird tantrum.....hehe, thanks for being supportive...it was entirely helpful......alrighty...nighty night.
Until next time.....
God bless!
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Aug 13, 2004
My my, today (yesterday but i havent gone to bed yet, you know the routine) was gorgeous. I went out to work on my "tan" and it wasnt half bad. Bc its normally discusting. yes yes.
My mom had open house tonight for her school, so my dad and i ate out. We went to Yen Jing, or however you spell it. I would say the food was decent but not worth getting again. Eileen happened to be our hostess. When we sat down my Dad said, "wow, she's really skinny, i mean really really skinny, she makes you look positively fat." hahahaha, oh how i love my dad. He always knows the right things to say to his daughters. hehe, I dont take it as an offense, hes a total teaser, but hes totally right. She is way skinny. He meant no harm. What a way to start the night.
Later on Jess and I headed to the Klingsborn casa where we met up with Chelsey, Meg, Adam, Sunshine and a couple of Chelsey's brother's friends. We ended up playing pool volleyball. It kicked. I was on brother and co. team. Didnt know them, but it was cool. oh geez, Jim, totally fricken hot. crap, i hope thats his name. anywho, he was niiice. Mind you, it was the first time this summer that i have swam in a bakini in front of others. Oh, it was an odd feeling. Plus, after my dad's wonderful dinner comment, i didnt really feel up to exposing my body to others. But i passed. says adam, but he would say that. -- he also said i wasnt envited to the lake tomorrow because im a real girl. So what does that make Jenny, Alice, and Jess? hmm, interesting. Meg and i totally didnt understand.
Yes yes yes. Alrighty, i am off to sleep. sooo tired.
I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!! Until next time.....
God bless the real girls!!!! And everyone else!!!!
P.S. -- Jess and i rocked it out with Bethany Dillon playing in the car!!! ahhh it made my night!!!!!
"Yeah-yeah-e-yeah, yeah-e-yeah, yeah-e-yeah yeah." http://www.bethanydillon.com/
Play "Move Forward" on the upper left hand side of the site. Its fricken awesome. She comes
to Houston August 28!!! Jess and i are pumped!!! whoop whoop.
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Aug 11, 2004
School starts very very soon
AHHHH! school in 6 days!!!! Can you believe it?? whew. the summer went by ultra fast. It was a good summer i must say. Ive seen the people i care about most and am quite content with everything. Except for college auditions. I could use some more time for that. But oh well. Time flies like non other.
yep yep. Anywho, I saw Miss Alice Weisner today. We spent a long time chatting it up. I havent really hung out with her in awhile. Her phone call was a very pleasant surprise. She informed me that Faithbridge Methodist church was having a really cool service at 6:30PM at Kleb Intermediate. Please attend. Faithbridge is totally awesome. Its gonna be kickin'. hehe. If youre interested, call Alice or I. We would love for you to come. yesss.
I visted Mr. Kamen Edwards today. He looked pretty good. Im guessing drugs are a happy thing for him right now. I hope he recovers quickly. Pain is no fun. Feel better Kamen. -- Id be really really excited if the two if us ended up getting to do The Last Five Years. Its an awesome show. The music kicks major butt. Kamen's totally right. We've never worked one on one. It shall be new to us. But it will be totally awesome!
Right now im watching Noises Off. Its good so far. Klein has a lot to work on for this show. But seriously, has Klein ever put on a horrible production? Everyone Ive seen has been pretty decent. So im not too worried. Itll be hard work, but i think we can do it. :) yep i have the Klein spirit already. hehe, big nerd.
Okay im off!! Until next time.....
God bless us every one. :)
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